74 thoughts on “Alcoholics and former alcoholics of reddit, when did you realize you became an alcoholic?

  1. on2muchcoffee March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    There’s a saying to remember-
    A man who knows when the liquor store closes is a heavy drinker, but an alcoholic knows when it opens.

    10 am M-S, 1 pm Sunday.

  2. mekanub March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    When I started alternating bottle shops, so they’d only see me buying 1 bottle a week and not 4 or 5.

  3. BigJoeKrash March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    For me it was three things rather recently:

    1. I started drinking to feel good instead of drinking to have fun.

    2. I started grabbing 3 beers at a time instead of 2 when watching TV (don’t want to have to get up too often)

    3. My hangovers are no longer head aches and stomach aches, but more like withdrawls. (In line with point 1, but I realized then seperately)

  4. maxwellingtonmax7 March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    Mostly when I realized that I couldn’t just drink normally like most people. I wasn’t ever happy or satisfied just drinking a couple beers, I still have trouble comprehending how people enjoy it. It’s always the whole bottle for me. It’ll be 1 year on the 17th though 🙂

  5. mwatwe01 March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    When I started waking up not knowing what I did the night before, or where I was at the moment.

  6. neonchinchilla March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    When I realized I needed to get drunk every night to function. I can go all day without needing a drink, I could use one on some stressful work days but it’s never been a struggle to keep my hand out of the handle….until I get home.

    Its like when you finally finish a hard day and you finally sit down and realize how hungry/tired you are. But instead how much you just wanna get drunk and play videogames. Shit I even forget to eat a lot of nights because I just fill up on alcohol.

    I get nervous when I realize I might not have enough alcohol to make it through the night which is liiike 1/4 of a handle.

    I’ve quit and fallen back off the wagon over and over, if they could just make calorie-less alcohol so I don’t gain weight every time I binge it’d be fabulous.

  7. onefineday7 March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    When I realized I couldn’t drink just one. If I have one, I literally cannot stop. Also, when I accepted that every time I quit a job on a whim, cheated on a partner, did anything incredibly dumb, I was intoxicated. Been sober eight months now and living my absolute best life.

  8. TosiHulluMies March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I went through a heavy drinking binge in December-February. I don’t if I was alcoholic or not but I realised it wasn’t a good way to live when I had an anxiety attack one night. That night I had drank all the vodka I had left and I decided to go to the store to buy beer. I put on my clothes and everything and just before stepping out the door I realised the store wouldn’t sell me shit because it was 22:30 already. In Finland it’s illegal to sell alcohol after 21:00. I had nothing to drink. I had a small anxiety attack and at the same time realised I might be developing a problem. Then I stopped getting drunk every night.

    Nowadays I only get drunk ~12 times a month. A huge improvment.

  9. Doctor-Van-Nostrand March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I don’t know exactly, I’ve drank everyday for a couple years. At some point I just realized that I didn’t just really like drinking, I was an alcoholic. Fortunately I know not to drink against the grain of the liquor.

  10. UnnamedNamesake March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I don’t like the term alcoholic because while I did drink excessively, it had more to do with me being self-destructive than it did me being addicted. That being said, I realized I was using alcohol to run away from my problems and inadvertently adding more to them.

  11. Sven_88 March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    When I had to drink in the morning to stop the shakes.

  12. JohnnySix66 March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    It wasn’t one thing. There were a few that scared me into sobriety:

    1) Getting headaches when I wasn’t drinking
    2) “Day-drinking” became “morning drinking”
    3) Looking in the mirror and seeing, for the first time, what other people saw (that is, a sad drunk)

    On a positive note, that all happened almost 14 years ago, and I’ve been sober since.

  13. BigOleTina March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    Everything I did revolved around alcohol.
    Going to a game, playing golf, bowling, getting a haircut, visiting family. All had to be done with alcohol.

  14. dinklagetubetop March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I started drinking when I was seventeen. I knew very quickly. Probably within a year.

    I remember when I was twenty, I was at some house party and some kid I didn’t know randomly came up to me and said, “So… do you think you’re an alcoholic?” I imagine I was probably out of control that night and the kid figured, “that dude has got to have a problem. I’m gonna go ask him.”

    I didn’t hesitate for a second. Told him, “Well, of course, yeah.” It was like he had asked me if I knew my name.

  15. mjh987 March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I realized I was a alcoholic a long time before really admitting it to myself. It’s amazing how easily we can lie to ourselves and think that this time I can handle one drink. Even after a few stints in jail, lost jobs, and relationships. I always thought this time would be different. It wasn’t until I had six months sober that I decided to have another drink. Within three days I was in a straight blackout. Don’t remember going to the liquor stores. Thought I was off work for one week and turned out to be a month. My family did a welfare check on me and wound up in the hospital with a 4.0 alcohol level. Still coherent and functioning. I came home and suffered through the withdrawals and finally realized I was killing myself. I’m not different and not Superman. My next drink could have been my last. I am thankful today that it wasn’t. Coming up on on one year sober and life is wonderful. My family still has a long way to go to have full faith in me but they do talk to me more then ever. My job promoted me and I have a life again. I do have to remember though what the past was like and remember what will happen if I drink again. If I can be where I am today I know others can do it too.

  16. rmonkhouse March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I used to party and drink every chance I could for any reason. Didn’t care about loosing friends or family in the process. All the while blowing opportunity after opportunity with careers and relationships. Slowly got to what i thought was normal and only drinking socially but then still wound up drunk every time I drank. Was having a “social” beer on my sons first birthday. Halfway through this all hit me and i realized I was better then that. I poured the beer out, grabbed a water and haven’t looked back. It’s been 50 weeks now(2 weeks shy of a year). I don’t plan on ever drinking again. I feel so happy with my choice. I don’t look down upon it. I just can’t handle it and choose not to for myself.

  17. GlennMac68 March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    My realization came at my 2nd AA meeting.

    I was in the Integrated Mood and Anxiety Program at a hospital called Homewood. The psychologist had me fill out a 300 question questionnaire and at the end of it said to me “Do you think you might have a drinking problem?” She recommended checking out an AA meeting so I went.

    First night was everyone sitting around in a circle saying what was on their mind, which was cool in its own way. The next night however was a “Speaker” night.

    This lady gets up in front of probably 100 people and proceeds to tell everyone MY story. She of course was talking about her life and why she needed help but the only difference between her life and mine was gender. Details like military family, alcoholic Dad, offered beer at 8 years old, blackout drunk by 14 years old, became parent by 19 years old and so on.

    It was a powerful realization that what I knew as normal was completely abnormal.

    I had my last drink a few days before I entered that hospital. That was Oct 19th, 2009.

  18. vinnyboyescher March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I got a saying. Heard it from somewhere but now it’s mine. I realized I was allergic to alcohol when I kept breaking into handcuffs.

  19. wsp_fan March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    Now. I lie and give excuses to my friends and family about why I can’t spend time with them because it cuts into my drinking time.

  20. penholdtogatineau March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    My then-boyfriend told me, “You are your father’s daughter.” It hurt a lot, because I did not want to be compared to my alcoholic father, and because I knew it was true.

    Unfortunately, I didn’t stop drinking until eight years later because I was miserable and wanted to die. I finally stopped drinking when I realized that things would never get better for me. I stayed at a soul-sucking job because I knew that I’d never be able to keep any other job. I drunkenly fell down the stairs and broke my ankle. I racked up a lot of debt, destroyed a really good relationship, lost the respect of my friends and my mentor.

    The only good thing left in my life at that point was my dog. I was ready to end it all, but I knew that she didn’t stand a good chance at being rehomed because she’s anxious and reactive and as neurotic as I am. I couldn’t bear the thought of leaving her alone and confused, so I got sober.

    Living sober is really hard and there have been a lot of days where I still want to end the torment, but my dog is happy and that’s enough for me.

  21. StephSands March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I woke up in my parents bed at 10pm after getting blackout and going to family dinner totally wasted.

  22. TipsyPingu March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    Many things factored in for me. Needing to drink because I was depressed thinking it would help, and drinking because I was happy and deserved it. Started drinking alone every night. Started drinking during work. For years I drank everyday, but only in the last 6 months of my heavy heavy drinking days did I drink at work, so Followed by a few arrests/hefty fines and lost relationships with family/friends I knew I was in to deep and it was time for a fresh start. Moved to a new city, was sober for a month and now I’m drinking occasionally on weekends again with a LOT of self control. Alcohol ruined my early adulthood, and I’m still recovering.

  23. ThinkSoftware March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    There is something called the CAGE questionnaire which healthcare professionals use to screen for alcoholism.

    Have you ever felt you needed to Cut down on your drinking?
    Have people Annoyed you by criticizing your drinking?
    Have you ever felt Guilty about drinking?
    Have you ever felt you needed a drink first thing in the morning (Eye-opener) to steady your nerves or to get rid of a hangover?

    If you answer yes to 2 or more, the screen is positive

  24. shefoundnow March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    Today, when I opened this thread and found that I identified with nearly every comment.

  25. bad__movie__fan March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I am pretty drunk right now so it’s hard for me to remember.

  26. MagesticLlama March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    When i started drinking the next morning to get rid of the hang over, ill be dipped that it actually works but me being me couldn’t stop and now I’m paying for years and years of excess alcohol abuse on my body. Was not worth it, if I could go back id get my crazy medicated and just snort the pot.

  27. 112wicky March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    Having to drink to go get the mail…

  28. PixelatedJustin March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    Last year in December, I drunkenly called my at-the-time fiancée at 3am, crying. Haven’t touched anything but the occasional wine or beer since then.

  29. Arniepepper March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    As an alcoholic, I am not sure there is such a thing a a former alcoholic.
    I think I’d known for years. It wasn’t till my marriage was breaking up that I actually did something about it.
    Went to AA, did 6 months or so. Sobered up, figured out all my doubts and suspicions were correct. took care of the business of changing my life then finally had a ‘happy’ drink to celebrate.
    I’ve still gotta be ultra cautious when drinking though.

  30. billwilson2 March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I was sitting in coastal state prison in garden city Georgia.

  31. thechaddster March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I looked in the mirror and realized I had become my father.

  32. homeskilled12 March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I had to be told that I was an alcoholic. I never was around alcohol growing up and my first exposures were when I was underage and brand new to the military. There is a stigma about military people being heavy drinkers, and that is not a misnomer. I drank what my friends drank, sometimes more, sometimes less. It was always too much and I know that now. I drink responsibly now and have done so for over a year now. I still have fun, I spend less money on alcohol and I always know what I did the night before.

  33. amongtheliving_ March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    When no one else wanted to drink the remaining beers left

  34. trogdortheman March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I’ve always struggled with alcohol, and pretty much always knew I was an alcoholic. I can go days without drinking, but once I have a drink its really easy to not stop til I wake up having no idea what happened. Sometimes I just don’t care and purposely get as drunk as I can. Depression and alcoholism are one shitty hand.

  35. futurefloridaman87 March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    Never was an alcoholic but was an full blown opiate addict. Anyways when quitting pain pills I started socially drinking a lot. I justified it by saying I was making up for time lost being a normal 20 something year old. I’m being honest when I say Drinking never caused me any issues; no lost jobs, no arrests, no fights, etc. I never drank alone, in the morning, or to blackout. None the less I was drinking too much, probably 4-5 days or so a week. One day I woke up realized that literally 100% of my social life was now drinking and that given my history continuing on that path would have a very high chance of ending in alcoholism.

    I still drink probably once to twice a month and it’s fine now. I have grown up and had my fill of dumb drinking. I can easily have 1-2 drinks and have zero desire for more.

  36. high_pants13 March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    Coming home every night and being 4 or 5 beers in and thinking, “well, I guess I’m drinking tonight. Again.”

  37. PLATYPUSJ0NES March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    When the shakes and heart palpitations hit.

  38. Wtfismypassword4444 March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I don’t get in trouble every time I drink. Every time I have been in trouble I was drinking.I heard that in aa,really sunk in.Been sober since November

  39. learnitallboss March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    When I realized that I had friends at all the parties and bars but that I was the only one at ALL of them.

  40. GruntNelson March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I am definitely on an alcoholic spectrum, if a spectrum exists. I don’t feel that I have a big enough problem to worry too much about but it can definitely become self destructive fast if I don’t keep myself in check.

    To answer the question, I was 28 and I realized that I had drank some quantity of alcohol every day since I was 21 and more or less frequent before that even. I have depression and I have a bad back which makes sleeping difficult so I was self medicating (I was always aware of this). On average I would drink between 5-8 beers a night. Sometimes I would drink bourbon or whatever friends were drinking but it was every night. It never affected my work life or family life all that much.

    Since that realization I have slowed down considerably. I’ll go a couple weeks without drinking then I’ll get a bottle of tequila and finish it in a two to three day period. It’s definitely an itch to scratch but after I get it out of my system I go sober for another couple weeks and I’m all good. Semi sobriety has definitely helped me to pursue more of my interests and manage my life more effectively.

  41. Redeyejedi2205 March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    One day I said to my old man that I thought I might be becoming an alcoholic he looked me square in the eyes and said you past that stage a long time ago . Penceatitis made me quit and have not looked back 12 years without and now I couldn’t think of anything worse than alcohol yuk

  42. the_restlessartist March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I still cannot comprehend how people are able to go have “a couple of drinks” and then just…stop drinking. Like – oh that was a good couple of beers, but I need to head home now and take care of some stuff.

    Because of the people I hung out with, I thought it was normal to drink EVERYTHING. You don’t stop drinking until you can’t drink anymore, essentially.

    Like if you say “let’s go have a drink” it was a common understanding that from that moment on – until you are no longer capable of drinking – that is the activity you will be engaging in.

    Later I realized that most people aren’t like that. So here I am ordering shot after shot and they’re like, “No, I’m done – see ya later!” and I’m over here going…”But…you said we were getting a couple of drinks. This is what a couple of drinks means…right?”

    I suppose it really became apparent when I would rather just get piss drunk at home by myself.

    Need to think? Drink.

    Need to relax? Drink.

    Worried? Drink.

    Happy? Drink.

    I’m a very functional alcoholic. I do not (and will not) enter a program. I do not want to stop drinking – but I do know that I am an alcoholic.

    I go two…three…four days without a drink, then sit out on the front porch (like I did four days ago) and drink two bottles of champagne and four 16 oz bottles of beer because I wanted to “think” then pass out on the couch with no recollection of when I went to bed.

    Then get up, go to the gym (because I go anyway no matter how shitty I feel) and repeat that every three or four days.

    i try not to actually go out because I’m self-aware of what a moron I am when I drink. The stupid overly political or psuedo-psychological conversations I get into (that nobody wants to fucking hear).

    Not to mention my tendency to look for a fight (like when I got in a fight with a Scotsman in the red light district of Thailand several months back and got a huge gash over my eye).

    But as far as whe did it “click” for certain…. I can’t say for sure. You just come to realize it over time. Lots of little things add up and you go, “Well – fuck – I’m a goddamned alcoholic.”

  43. bliblablop March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    The things that made me stop drinking: i started to leave partys early to go home and drink more alone. I started looking at alcohol content of beverages to decide what to buy. I started to open beercans with a knife and put a hole in them so that my girlfriend didnt hear the clicksound from opening.
    No amount of alcohol in the house was safe. When i started drinking, i stopt when the last drop of alcohol was gone. I drank nasty lowprice stuff to get high. I could not go to work anymore because of hangovers and lost my job. Stealing winebottles from my uncles winecellar when i was out of alcohol. The realization that i could easely drink a bottle of hard liquor and didnt die, same with two. That buying one sixpack was not enough, then two, then three. Buying winebottles in sixpacks. Drinking for 24 hours straight and not blackout. Realising that moderation is not a option for me. Its all or nothing. I dont want one beer i will all the beer. Thers just a stop when i pass out, not before. And so on… Im sober for 133 days now and counting.

  44. megando21 March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I woke up the next morning realizing that if I don’t quit, I’m going to end up hurting myself or even worse, someone else. Both physically and emotionally.
    Going on 2 months sober now!

  45. cleanhousetattoo March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    Looking back, probably a long time before I acknowledged it. I got to the point where I had to have something waiting for me in the morning because I couldn’t function if I didn’t have a high enough BAC and would start vomiting until I could get my hands on some. This presented a problem because I would usually have blacked out the night before and forgot where I hid the rest of the second fifth and I would just crawl around the floor shaking and vomiting until I could find it or convince someone to bring me more. If you’re looking for a sign, don’t wait until that point. I was lucky and got a subdurmal hematoma the 9th time I was hospitalized with alcohol poisoning. I was a 24 year old female.

    A good early indicator is if you are on your second drink and you find yourself obsessing about how your going to get the third instead of enjoying what you’re doing. Or trying to match someone’s slower pace in front of them but secretly drink during/ drank before.

  46. LuckyMissL March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    Wow. Seeing this right now is so timely. In the absolute pit of alcoholism right now. 9.22 am and I missed my train to work because I woke up still pissed, decided Fuck it I’ll not go to work and poured myself a gin. Haven’t called work yet because I don’t know what to say. Waiting for the supermarket to open at 10am.

  47. ToyVaren March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    This one is pretty cool: almost every alcoholic did something obsessively when they were small children. Examples:


    Sticking something in their ear and twirling it

    Jumping off of high places/falling

    Crossing eyes

    Mine was the last one. i remember I did it so often people thought I had a disability.

    These are considered the first high.

  48. BourqueBourqueBourqu March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I knew I would become an alcoholic around my first or second year of college. The consequences didn’t start until I was 4 years deep into my first grown up job.

  49. Sullan08 March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I think I’m currently around there because all day at work I think about if I want to drink or not when I get home (and I almost never drink less than a fifth). I’m weird in the way though that I can control when I drink or even stop completely for awhile once I hit some arbitrary “point”, which coincidentally I kinda hit today. I used to only drink on days off but now I’ve started doing it more. It’s only been a little less than a year though so in terms of alcoholism it’s early. It started because of depression, but now it’s just cuz I like being drunk lol. But the hangovers during work have gotten to me so I’m gonna try and quit for a bit. Also nothing makes you gain weight like 3-4 5ths in a week lol.

  50. Indicud2 March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    Idk I feel like I have an addictive personality when it comes to substances. I used to smoke alot everyday but now I replaced it with drinking in a way. I always feel empty or something is missing with me. I prefer to be under the influence of something. I do find myself waking up and wanting to drink and wanting to drink more inbetween the week. I’m glad I’m back home with my parents during college I would drink in my apartment to pass time just so can see the next a bit quicker. I still have the cravings but being home helps me control it a bit more

  51. uniqueusername0054 March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I was drinking everyday, wanted to do activities that involved drinking. I’d blow off everyone and everything to stay home and drink, I wasnt hurting anyone was how I saw it. It seemed like each day my fuse was shorter and shorter. I went out with my fiancé and her friends and got on and off blacked out, I said something rude that started a fight and I just snapped, I knocked over some big stone flower pots broke some things off some peoples cars, ripped off some crossing arms threw bar chairs into the street and then punched a brick wall a few times until I broke a couple bones then sprinted home which was about 15 blocks.
    Next day I drive myself to urgent care when I failed to reset my hand, and I just caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and it just hit me, “I have a problem and I’m ruining my life” first thought was kill myself. I nutted up Then I called my father in law and told him I was sorry for how I acted towards his daughter, and I got over that shit. If I didn’t I’d be at a dead in job, not almost done with school, not married, and not expecting a son in less than a week. Or I would have killed myself.
    I drink casual when I drink, I’m fixing what made me want to be fucked up all the time and I feel better about life. Stress and not being proud of myself was what did it. Instead of me crying about not amounting to anything and getting trashed I’m amounting to something.
    I do feel like a piece of shit for messing up people’s cars and I know karma will get me back,

  52. Elle_Muppet March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    When I was the last one still up right at the end of the night.

    Also I couldn’t afford to do anything because all my money was being spent on alcohol.

  53. G0dsAngel March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    When I came up with my motto: can’t drink all day if you don’t start in the morning.

  54. Juiciest_slut March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I woke up in an abandoned warehouse on a dirty mattress next to a homeless woman who pissed all over both of us and there was a bloody baseball bat next to me.

  55. Buckhoist50 March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    Personally i think it’s something you are born with, not something you become. But i realized I was an alcoholic at a very young age where I realized I couldn’t just have a few like most people, i would just keep drinking till i passed out. Even after years of not drinking the thought of just having one beer baffles me, I WANT THEM ALL!!

  56. theguybadinlife March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I think it was when I went to the lcbo store first thing in the morning before work. It opens at 10 am and I had work at 11. Usually I would have a shot of whiskey in the morning before going to work, but i ran out. So this morning I went and bought a small bottle to drink a little. I needed a semi private place to drink so naturally I went to work as usual. As soon as I got there I went to the bathroom and took a swig from the bottle and then went to my desk.

    I got a flask now to avoid such hassles.

  57. A_Game_of_Scones March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    Don’t have anything to contribute to this thread. But I think I’m heading in that direction. A drink every single night when I get home from work or school turns into 5. God forbid days off I start as early as I don’t have plans. About to go to bed? Shot for the sleep. Shit, currently on drink 7 of the evening. Got to be up in 6 hours. Sad thing is I’m not even that drunk. Guess I built up a tolerance. But I can’t go a day without drinking. I just genuinely hate where my life is at and I drink to get rid of that realization. Only 21 but I’ve been doing this shit since 15. Not like I have enough brain cells left to make anything of my life so might as well keep ruining my life.

  58. DemeaningSarcasm March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm


    What do you do when you have a friend who is an alcoholic?

  59. Nananananbaa March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    When you begin suspecting it then it’s probably time to seek help.

  60. YUlie2me March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    When I was drinking at first I was having fun, little here little there I knew my limits. Then work and school got to me and I drank to get away from it all. When both started dying down I kept drinking and it wasn’t fun anymore it was sad. I would do stupid stuff and not regret it until the next day but it didn’t stop me. I haven’t been drinking for a month now not just to recover but to just better myself in general. I wouldn’t mind having a drink like one beer after a long day but I just think back and realize I don’t wanna go down again.

  61. gregyong March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    When drinking anything off a bottle, be it water, juice, beer, feels like a habit than a necessity, as in constant non stop drinking whenever anything in a bottle is around. Like smokers and vaping.

  62. MavenhirstHall March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    Probably when the pub I was in ran out of Jameson because I drank all of it… Whoops.

  63. Velghast March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    When my partner’s noticed that my drinking was very frequent. When them noticing turned into rage for them wanting to moderate me. And subsequently when I destroy relationships because I wouldn’t stop. Even though I stopped drinking and I’m proud of myself for it I can’t get the ones I love back.

  64. S_Seaborn March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    Honestly? Probably in college when I’d be the only one consistently blacking out. But I hoped that “it was a phase.”

    10 years later, turns out it wasn’t.

  65. GoonerKitten March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    It’s 1PM on a Wednesday afternoon and I’m currently pouring my second gin drink.

  66. ecallawsamoht March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I don’t necessarily remember the exact moment i became one, but i definitely remember the weekend that i finally realized i needed to stop. I was on vacation with my family and i was robbing experiences from my children because my selfish ass was too preoccupied with getting back to the hotel so that i’d have enough time to drink. I drank my last beer on July 22, nearly 8 months ago. I knew for several months, hell maybe even years i had a problem. I’d go to the store and buy my beer to keep in the house, then my secret beer to keep in the garage. so my wife sees me drinking 6 beers, but i’ve really had 10 or 12. when you start hiding it, you know you’ve reached the point of needing help. For months i would say “this weekend is it, after that i’m cutting back”, yet i never did, if anything i would end up drinking more. I grew up with a dad who had a problem with alcohol as well, and i have memories of my parents fighting that still haunt me to this day, roughly 25 years later, so i didn’t want to ever expose my children to the same trauma. before kids my alcohol addiction only affected me mostly, but once the kids were involved, that was it, no more. I quit cold turkey. at first i just wanted to go a month, and once i hit that milestone i just kept going. i feel so much better now it’s unbelievable. i can’t ever go back to the way i was. that’s the trap most alcoholics fall into, they think they can moderate it, but once you get to a certain point that’s nearly impossible. once you become a pickle, you can’t go back to being a cucumber.

  67. MoominSings March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    Problem drinker here (not physically addicted, but sure as hell still dependant):

    I caught myself thinking “Hey, I’ve been sober a long time now. I deserve a drink!”. Then counting back and realized I hadn’t drunk in two days… Two days and that felt like a “really long time”.

    That’s when I started trying to cut back and keep track of my drinking, and boy did I drink more often that I thought. Usually 4-5 days a week (and 4-10 beers), and the days I didn’t it was usually because of puking-hangovers, or being incapable of drinking for whatever reason.

    I doubly realized this when I decided to stop. I decided to stop a number of times. Over and over and over again I decided to stop. Yet I still always ended up drinking… There is always a reason to drink if you invent a reason to drink.

  68. sprinklememaynee March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm


    recovering alcoholic here.

    I realized that I was a doomed alcoholic when I would try and go out for 1 beer, and end up staying out for upwards of 12 hours, and drinking to the point of alcohol poisoning each time.

    In fact, I was unable to realize that I was an alcoholic because the addicted mind is so cunning and baffling, that regardless of the fact that each time I went out for “1” drink, I would end up puking and being hungover for 3 days, I wasn’t an alcoholic, I had just slipped up and drank too much.

    It took gaining 60 pounds in two years, and being broke, almost jobless, and almost losing my partner to come to the realization that a) Sundays do exist, and are for more than spending huddled in the bathtub crying
    b) that I am an alcoholic.

    I currently have 2.5 years of sobriety, and I can tell you that even my worst day sober, is 10000 times better than my best night drinking 🙂

  69. BurberryCustardbath March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I’m a recovering drug addict, but ‘polysubstance dependence’ is technically what I was diagnosed with. I never felt like I had an issue with alcohol, though, for some reason I guess because I never felt like I needed to hide what I was doing from anyone. People just know that I like wine and I drink a lot of it. They don’t need to know about my drug dependence. I can talk about drinking and people laugh or make a joke out of it. All my coworkers post memes about excessive wine drinking or whatever on my Facebook all the time. So, it’s just normalized I guess. Plus I mean, *it’s just wine, right?*

    Monday was the first time I hid (or at least attempted to hide) my drinking from my husband while he was actually at home. I also realized how much money I spent on alcohol in the last six weeks, and I can’t remember the last day that I didn’t get drunk. The thought of not having alcohol at home gives me anxiety, and I try to convince myself that it won’t be a problem to take a day off or so. Then I convince myself otherwise, that I can have that bottle of wine, it’s no big deal.

    Except it’s starting to make me sick, and I still haven’t stopped. So, to answer your question, OP… now is when I’m starting to realize this might be a problem.

  70. howbouthellno March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I’m only 21 and I think I might be an alcoholic. I started drinking when I was 12 and at 19 or 20 realized that i’ve been getting drunk every weekend since. When I was 18 and in school, my memory got really bad. I would often forget how I got to school, if I walked or took my bike. I still forget things i’ve talked to my friends about and they have to tell me multiple times or i’d forget it again. It doesn’t help that my father is an alcoholic and my mom is, what I would describe, a functioning alcoholic. Recently, I sensed that my friends don’t really want me with them when they’re going out, because i’ve gotten in fights, kicked out of clubs etc.. and I don’t blame them. I haven’t been drinking in three weeks and on saturday, when i’m going to a birthday party, I’ll take the car and some redbulls to make sure I don’t drink. I wanna try having fun on the weekends without drinking, because I have always felt like my weekends sucked when I didn’t party. I’m really scared that i’ll end up as my father. I don’t know if I qualify as an alcoholic, but I sure feel like one sometimes.

  71. jessh90 March 14, 2018 / 4:15 pm

    I’ve drank everyday since I got out of jail 2 years of go for a dui.
    I’m a functioning addict though. Kitchen manager for half a year, 9 year grill cook.
    Have a house with a mortgage and all that shit

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