Edit 3: I didn’t expect getting so many responses. I just wanted to let it out somewhere. Thank you everyone for everything you’ve said. It really! Really means a lot.
Here’s the old post. It didn’t get much attention but I just had to say something somewhere.
I found out he has been with this other girl for as long as we were together. He started talking AFTER we did and decided it was okay to be in two relationships at the same time.
Because it was ldr I told him to end it in the beginning so many times and he’d say no we’ll work it out and never let me go. Did things for me that made me believe he does love me.
So I talked to this girl and it turns out he has been doing almost the same thing with her. And they’ve met a couple of times and were going to, in March.
I feel like shit and an idiot. Despite having a very hard life myself I gave everything I had to offer. Supported him through his difficult times, everything. He talked to the both of us every night. Along with work, gym and friends/family.
He called me and we talked probably for the last time and he was crying I think I don’t know but he said he does love me and it was a mistake getting with her but he “didn’t know how to end it”. That I was amazing and there’s no comparison between me and her or anyone. That I was way too good for him and after all this he could never even look at me, after hurting me the way he did. But I think it was all just to make me feel a little better.
Me her and him talked on call to clear things out and she asked him to choose who he wants. I didn’t want to do this because he doesn’t deserve anyone but she did and he chose her. And kept saying it’s only because we live far away and it’s difficult for us to be together. And that girl, kept telling me to go, he’s all hers now and don’t ever talk to him again. I won’t but it sucked so bad my heart just died when he said he’d choose her. And she kept threatening him with this guy friend of hers that she’ll be with him when he was defending me from her, from the way she was talking. So he told me he’s with her because I don’t deserve him and crap.
Edit: I told him in the heat of the moment that I’d tell everyone in his friends/social media circle about what he did to make him feel ashamed. But then when he called later I told him I won’t do anything to hurt him, in any way and that I forgave him. He’ll probably think I’m too weak to do anything but I don’t even want to have to hate him anymore. Idk if that was the right thing to do or not, I did. And we didn’t even get to say goodbye 🙂
Edit 2: he had deactivated all social media because of the doubts I had seeing her tweets. I just saw he’s back everywhere and it hasn’t even been a day. I feel furious and I want to be mad at him!!
Sorry if it’s not in the right format or the wordings. It just happened and I’m still not okay at all I just had to get this out
Tl;dr: ldr boyfriend has been with another girl all the time he was with me and is very sorry for it all but chose her in the end because it’s difficult for us to be together, living in different countries. Kept saying she is nothing not even close to being as good as me but that’s probably bullshit.