71 thoughts on “What secret are you hiding from everyone?

  1. Wurstgesicht88 February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I think I‘m getting less intelligent by the day. I‘ve become worse at reading and learning was a piece of cake a year ago, but now I need more time. Also I‘ve become really bad at remembering things, it‘s weird.

  2. nonlocal_hobo February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I don’t know if I love my girlfriend anymore. But I’m definitely sure a breakup would be horrible for both of us. I love her, but what if I don’t? I’d definitely regret it if I broke up with her. I care for her so much, but I don’t feel she’s the one I want to marry. But she fits in so well with me and my family, she’s lovely.

    I just don’t know.

  3. fat_lazy_mofo February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I stop getting to know people so they don’t find out I have no friends and think I’m weird.

  4. ImAGeekNotANerd February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I’m a complete idiot. Everyone seems to think I’m smart.

  5. JonSnowsLeftBall February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    That im worried that i am better friends with the people around me then they are with me.

    Its not that i feel outright excluded, or unwelcome. Just that the amount of care and effort i put into these friendships isnt reciprocated.

    I try to help where possible, be there for them when they are down and need a friend. I dont know that they would do the same for me.

  6. Hocart February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    That I have been dating a girl for the last 5 years. I come from a background where dating is strictly forbidden, and we usually have our marriages arranged. Gonna be and awkward conversation when I finally tell them

  7. ANGIEINCAPS February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    that i feel greatly unaccomplished as if there’s always something missing, something that should be there that isn’t – just gaping in need of distraction. constantly bored.

  8. TheMightyIrishman February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I’ve been emotionally numb for a while. There was a little ray of happiness and true fun the day I got married, but for many years before then and up to now have been pretty much just me faking it. Once we get ahead on bills I plan on seeing somebody about it.

  9. Kaleeva February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I’m not sure I can feel romantic love

  10. thatwhichwontbenamed February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I have no intention of killing myself, but I would prefer to die and not exist than to continue living. It’s not a great state of being because I know the trauma it would cause on my family and friends, but also know that I wouldn’t care if I died so what’s to stop me?

  11. SadPenguin February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    That I’m still in love with my ex husband and I don’t know how not to be.

  12. fakegraduate2 February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I actually revealed everything to my family last month. I’ve been pretending to go to university for the past four years. Faked my results, account statements, everything. They were expecting a graduation ceremony so I was forced to come clean. Don’t know how long I could’ve kept it up. To say they fucking freaked would be an understatement.

  13. spinrg February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    My fleshlight. If they ever find it I’m in for a world of hurt. That’s why I keep it in the backyard under an overturned wheelbarrow. Im dead serious. They go thru my room when I’m not here. That’s why I have to hide it outside.

  14. Missriss97 February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I don’t ever miss my family back home. I lie and say that I do, and when I’m with them I pretend to be happy to be there, but in actuality I feel so incredibly emotionally distanced from them and almost everyone else in my life.

    EDIT: wowow I didn’t expect this comment to get so much attention.
    To clear a few things/questions up: I do feel horrible for feeling the way I do. I’m working on it. I left home feeling like I was escaping, and when I got to where I am now I felt free. I’ve grown and changed so much now that I’ve gone, and it makes me feel like no one back home really knows me. And I don’t really know them. I love my family, but our relationship was so broken when I left, and repairing relationships from such a distance happens slowly. It’s awesome to know I’m not alone in feeling this way.

  15. MarsNirgal February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I’m seeing a psychologist to deal with my work addiction and my grandma’s death.

    My dad would strongly disapprove (he thinks everyone should be able to overcome things without help, by sheer willforce), and my mom would worry unnecessarily (she would think things are worse than they are).

    Edit: Wow, this is amazing. Thank you, everyone.

  16. TheVeryWorstLuck February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    That I actually give a fuck. Like, so much of a fuck that it hurts. However, I’m very aware that I come across emotionless.

  17. GorillaS0up February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I don’t want to do the normal grind. Waking up insanely early and commuting and all that. I just want an easy minimum wage job, live in a shed and be a lazy useless piece of garbage

  18. majorsevensharpfive February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I’m pretty sure I’m approaching a diagnosis of schizophrenia… I’ve been having episodes where I freeze and can’t move or talk for ~1 hour, my thoughts are getting increasingly loud, I’ve been hearing voices and other aural hallucinations, lights and sounds have been increasingly bright/loud, my appetite is changing, I’ve been more paranoid and recently have started to feel like there is a presence of some sort in my room when I sleep, I feel changes in my gait sometimes, and more…

    My parents know and are helping me as well as my closest friend at school. But I haven’t gotten the courage to tell old friends or friends that I love dearly but haven’t seen much of this year. I don’t know what to do 🙁

    Thank you all for the support, perspectives, and advice! I appreciate you all and the amount of love has really brightened my day.

    To answer some frequent inquiries, I was diagnosed with Narcolepsy without cataplexy this past summer. All was great until some of the more odd symptoms started to show up. I had an EEG and an MRI and they both came back clean! I am under some guidance of a sleep doctor and a neurologist. The neurologist doesn’t think I have epilepsy but isn’t sure what is going on. I saw a psychiatrist over Christmas break and she said my symptoms didn’t make too much sense and that it’s probably narcolepsy or anxiety… I’m seeing a (general?) doctor tomorrow and hope to continue pressing towards a diagnosis 🙂

    I love you all <3 Thank you for making me smile

  19. blooddidntwork February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I am very busy with school and work, my sister makes terrible life choices which, after my mom is gone will probably result in me having to live with her because she’s basically setting herself up to be bankrupt at 25. I stay in good shape, I run, climb, eat healthy, I don’t drink or do drugs, people say I am funny. I also regularly think about taking my .45 into a grassy field, laying down for a few moments and shooting myself in the mouth. I don’t speak to therapists about it because it will get me involuntarily committed to an institution if I’m honest about my feelings, and I am scared to go on SSRI’s or any psychoactive drugs where I lose control. So I just think about these things. I also have a very negative self image and I don’t do well in social situations which I force myself to go to because I hear, “go on, blooddidntwork, you need to put yourself out there!” While inside I am just screaming.

  20. Lukeyboy1589 February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I have an insane amount of anxiety. I have the emotional expression of a robot, so I seem fine pretty much no matter what, but on the inside I’m just terrified. Of everything. I have unrealistic fears of every day, I lose sleep thinking of the worst possible scenarios that can happen when I go anywhere. I know I need help but I think my worst fear is how my parents would react to knowing I have these problems. They’re cool people and my problems aren’t their fault but I know they’d blame themselves.

  21. LittleLadyK February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I just want to die. I want to feel nothing. I love my dogs, their the only reason right now. I can’t tell if I’m headed for a breakdown or already there. I can’t deal with the debt, my shitty job, or the divorce anymore. I’ve been fighting to make my situation better. I was suicidal a few months back and it felt like for a time things were getting better, but it’s an endless vicious cycle. I feel better, but feel a cloud of sadness over me all the time and then I go into a deep pit of despair that takes me days to come out of. I want to be happy, but the reasons I have to live or things to look forward to are mattering less and less to me.

  22. SexualPermission February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    Not exactly something most people in their right mind would consider secret-worthy but I’m hiding all the medical exams I’m doing (at my very own expense at that) from my parents. They both have a whole host of other problems to think about and my mother wouldn’t understand nor tolerate me spending that much money… young people sneak out to party and do fun stuff, I sneak out to have X-rays done or talk to a doctor. Such is my life now.

    Sometimes I even pretend to have nonexistent job interviews when I’m actually going to a specialist – I print fake resumes to be handed to equally fake businesses and I use the folder to easily smuggle home whatever medical record they give me. I then scan those, send them to my GP via e-mail and get rid of the paper trail.

    Gee I really could use some honesty in my life!

  23. maryjokappa February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    That I am not a thriving, independent single lady who don’t need no man. I want a man. I want to be in a committed relationship with someone who truly cares about me.

  24. rfbasshead February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    My girlfriend is 5 months pregnant

  25. chefatwork February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    My alcoholism is really the only thing preventing me from accepting and holding down a good-paying job in my industry. I’m applying to positions which pay less and demand more simply because I know I can get away with drinking either on the job or drinking as much as I like then reporting for work capable of performing my assigned tasks. I could be making $50-60k/yr but I’m looking at jobs which pay less than half. It’s hard, and I can’t tell anyone because then my chances of being hired even at that reduced wage would drop to zero. I want to die.

  26. viggy2547 February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I’m pretty sure I can grow bum pubes at a superhuman rate. I wipe my arse after the toilet, bum pubes on the seat. Have a shower, bum pubes on the floor. End of the day, bum pubes in my boxers. Yet I still have an incredibly hairy arse hole.

  27. Uncharted911 February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    How badly this break up is hurting. I let my friends know to an extent but i dont tell them i cry every day and drink just to numb myself

  28. maximum_jokester February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    You don’t have to read this, I’m just getting this out of my chest

    I’ve known for a while that i wasn’t suppost to exist. My mom only discovered that she was pregnant of me 4 months after, they never planned to have me, only my sister. Recently i changed schools, so i don’t know anyone, yet i still want to make friends or have ANY kind of relationship with someone. But they already have their groups so i feel like i’d be a dead weight… like i’ve always been. And i feel that if i approach them, i might mess up or they’ll think I’m a weirdo or something. And i spend most of my days isolated from other people, like in different rooms (I’m writting this in the bathroom in the middle of my cousin’s party right now, as an example).

    I don’t want to bother anyone, but i also want somebody to talk to, to be with. This is killing me inside, and i started thinking negative things about myself, and I’m afraid i might have depression.

  29. BeholdMyGarden February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I’m the most selfish person I know, I just hide it really well

  30. Adaman1324 February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I have a really strong hypnosis fetish and I don’t want to share that with anyone that I’m close to for fear of seeming weird or creepy.

  31. ThrowAway___86 February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I’m a 31-year old guy, I’m secretly sleeping with my 61-year old administrator. Nobody knows, not even my closest friends. It started out with a platonic friendship and slowly developed into what it is right now.

    EDIT: this is kinda liberating, thank you all for the nice words. Even though you’re all strangers it feels great to be able to share this.

  32. Jasonator01 February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    Secretly I’m a little bit naive.

  33. hilw February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    Throwaway because people know my actual account. I just realized that I want to marry my girlfriend. We are not at that point in our relationship yet but she’s the one. It’s weird because i don’t believe in “the one” but here I am. God, she makes me so happy and i’m incredibly lucky. I have only told this to my brother because SOME of my “friends” have been telling me for a while that i should break up with her because apparently she’s ugly and therefore i’m out of her league and I should be dating other models. It makes me so mad because she’s insecure about her looks and even if she isn’t the prettiest person out there, she truly is beautiful. The way she giggles at everything including my stupid jokes, the way she smiles and instantly makes everyone in the room smile makes her so breathtakingly beautiful. And she’s genuinely a good person who puts and thinks about other people over herself but that doesn;t mean she lets people walk over her. I remember the first time I saw her give it straight and called out this guy at her work and it was amazing. She’s always talking about how if she wants to make the world a better place she needs to try to better herself because she’s a part of this world. Yeah she’s not perfect but she’s pretty close and I strive everyday to be half the person she is today. I haven’t really told her any of this either but now I feel like I should :).

  34. mrunfunnyman121 February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    Occasionally I’ll visit my mum, and when I do, I use her luxury shower gels, shampoos and conditioners. I get out of the shower smelling and feeling great. She has no clue, mwahaha

  35. HebrewHamm3r February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I’m actually three children in a trenchcoat

  36. Haru-xo February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I hate the fact that my dad has felt obligated to add my sister (who isn’t his biological daughter) onto his will. I resent her for being the type of person she is. She’s lazy, babied by my mom out of guilt, and has nothing going on in her life because she’s immature and always finds a way to put the blame on someone else. She doesn’t take care of herself physically and health wise. She’s 30 years old and has been in-and-out of school since she was 18. She lied to social security to get on disability and spends her $400 on stupid stuff. She hasn’t had a part time job in I-don’t-know-how-long. She stays locked in her room watching tv or on her phone. She doesn’t appreciate what my dad has done for her despite her not being biologically his. He’s given her everything she has needed, plus more. She failed her college classes several years ago and my dad had to sell his precious guitars to pay financial aid back. That still hurts me till this day. My grandma always tells me “I don’t think your sister is ever going to make a living for herself.” I feel like my sister is just waiting for my mom or dad to die so she could collect the life insurance. I already told my mom, “When the day comes that you and dad leave this planet, i’m not going to be watching over my sister. She’s on her own.” My mom doesn’t protest. She understands. I fantasize about me living far away and not know anything about my sister. I’m 22 and I’ve had to be the older sister many times. She doesn’t deserve any of my dad’s money. He’s done plenty for her and he shouldn’t feel obligated to help her since she refuses to help herself. My mom knows that me and my sister aren’t close. I know it breaks her heart but she understands. I just have no respect for my sister. I see her more like a housemate than family. I fear the day that she gets married and/or has children. I feel for THEM, not her. Thanks for listening. I’ve had this bottled up and never told anyone before.

  37. TheProphesizer February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I don’t want to make money. I am okay with working a basic job and living in a small house. In fact, that’s what I want.

  38. Kaleeva February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I’m trying really hard to not drink when I’m alone because I know it will end badly but after a drink I feel happy, I feel something

  39. J0HNNY_RICO February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    For some reason today, I have been having very invasive thoughts that I should kill myself.

    I have no personal history of mental illness. No significant trauma. None of the usual indicators that would lead someone to consider suicide.

    But I carry a gun for work and I have had to put it away/unload it a couple times today because I didn’t trust myself with it.

    I don’t know what to do.

  40. olemiss18 February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    To unwind, I watch videos of people with really bad sunburns peeling off thicc layers of skin. My basement is currently body-free, thanks for asking.

  41. rainxc February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I’m almost 40yo virgin. Although I’m pretty sure some people who knows me probably figured that out.

  42. DoNotEatTheTail February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I am about to accept a job that’s a 20% pay increase and no one at my current job knows.

  43. probablykelz February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    My 11 year old daughter likes to steal my expensive makeup and take it to school and use it on all her friends. She has done it with a palette and my foundation. She has stolen several mascara from me so finally I locked all my makeup in my closet. It has a key lock.

    Anyways my secret is that I took an old foundation bottle, washed it out and put some foundation in and the rest is self tanner. I put it in the bathroom. Now I wait.

  44. mandrew31 February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    Who I really am inside. I’m always happy, I put a smile on my face, go to work and have a good time and am outgoing and energetic. Deep down I’m a miserable, unhappy person. I’ve given up on life and I have no hope for a future. I have more days where I wish I just won’t wake up, but I keep on going because I couldn’t imagine what it would be like for my family. They would have no clue what happened and who I really was.

  45. pssrby February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    There was a period in my life where I self-harmed by pushing needles into my arms and legs.

  46. sophapilla97 February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    That I’ve been seeing a friend of mine. Our exes are in a large friend group and we don’t want to hurt anyone. He’s the biggest, sweetest dork of a human. Oh my goodness, he can make me laugh until I can’t breathe. 10/10 human.

  47. do_not_disturb_ February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I don’t see the point in the life society says we should live. A full time job, a house, the kids, the car, the holidays once a year. Sometimes I feel like I should pack my suitcase and me and my son just go off to whatever country we fancy. I could pick up whatever job pays for food and board and we live whatever life we want. I could school him the basics and the rest he learns from different cultures and people he meets and life experience. I just don’t know why we put ourselves through so much stress for lives we ultimately don’t really want to live, we just think we should

  48. DisabledDebate February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    My friend recently found out they have a bun in the oven.

    My husband and I just had a miscarriage after trying for 3 fucking years.

    I sit there, smile and act happy and say “congratulations” while inside it feels like I’m on fire from the jealousy. She must have gotten knocked up about a month after we lost our baby, they weren’t trying for one or anything. I’m happy for her, but there’s that little bit inside me going “GOD DAMNIT” because as soon as that kid is born I’ll be meeting them, holding them and grieving the fact that my own kid wasn’t around to meet their new best friend for life.

  49. kslater22 February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I’ve had anxiety for pretty much my entire life and I’ve been depressed for a few years. My gf knows a bit but nothing close to the full extent.

    A couple fantastic experiences with mushrooms have helped considerably in the last 2 years but there’s still a long way to go.

  50. AandreFergusan February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    That a lot of what I worked on in therapy is learning to let go of the emotional abuse they put me through. I know they’re good people, I don’t want them to feel horrible like I did.

  51. kitkatsaremyweakness February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    My dad (not bio, but raised me) is a sex offender and pedophille. He got away with it and lied and hid it for years and years. Since it came out a few years ago I have cut him and my mom out of my life (I have kids). My mom hasn’t left him. I lie to almost everyone I know about it. I’m more ashamed of my mom and the people in my family that haven’t cut him out.

  52. LindaBelcher123 February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I have an alcohol problem. I’m the stereotypical stay at home mom in the burbs. I have two small children and drink because I’m very lonely. I have always teetered on the line of having a problem but I would only drink on the weekend and no kids.

    Im lonely, feel pressured to be perfect and don’t know what to do. I’m bad at Mom dates. On the upside my children are very happy, well behaved and simply wonderful. My husband is also wonderful we’re just in a bit of a rough patch. I don’t know who to talk to about it.

    There are a million comments here so if you read this, thanks.

  53. TwoShadez February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I got raped. But it wasn’t violent or anything like it sobered me up enough to come out of being black out drunk and I got out of there. Legally it was rape but like I don’t think other people would see it that way, I’d probably just get called gay?

    Also I want to die. Like I already wanted to die before the whole rape thing but I make a lot of jokes about it and nobody takes it seriously.

  54. Dinosaur_Weirdo February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I use humour to mask my intense self-hatred and suicidal thoughts.

    I mean haha me too thanks

  55. Wallawallabingbangxx February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    That I’m a lesbian and I have been seeing a woman who I love to bits for nearly 4 months now. She was separated from her husband for over a year before we started seeing each other. She realised a few years ago that she liked women. She has 3 kids. Most of my family know her as we are from a small enough town. My sister’s were in her class in school. In the last 4 months I’ve lied to my family so much. But we love each other. And for now we are going to keep this secret. 1 friend of mine knows and 2 of her friends. That’s it. It’s hard going and draining with the lies but love is love and I don’t want to lose her.

  56. r_meow February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    Used to be a stripper, and I loved it.

  57. mdsjhawk February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    That I honestly want to hang out with 2 people, my best friend and my husband (and my dogs). Everyone else, for the past 2 years, have gotten on my nerves so much that I don’t care to talk to them. I fear I’m going to have no one at some point. I just keep pushing people away, even good people who don’t mean any harm.

  58. Sybre February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    When I had to take a cultural anthropology class for college, I was extremely close to rethinking my engineering major.

  59. iamoldskool February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I won a large amount of money on the lottery in 2016 and chose to be anonymous and haven’t told anybody, still live in the same ex council semi house i owned before it happened and work at the same (admittedly great) job I had before and still drive the same car.

    I’m so frightened about how it will change my relationships with family and friends that I’ve not told anybody, I even occasionally ask my dad or girlfriend to borrow cash as I’ve been “caught short” before pay day, always pay them back of course.

  60. PMmeWaffles February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I’m pretending to be asexual and aromantic so all the women I know can feel good around me and not see me as a potential creep and stop anyone from giving me any shit for being single. Just decided to bite the bullet for everyone I meet, I’m a really ugly guy and I’d rather die alone than cause anyone such stress of being the love interest of someone as hideous as me.

  61. HopedownStJohn February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I’m asexual.
    Genuinely no interest in/active distaste around sex.

  62. CalmBeyond February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    I’ve been feeling *really*, **really** down on myself lately. I mean, I don’t have a stellar existence to begin with, but the therapist I’ve been seeing for years literally told me about a month ago that my life sucks even when I’ve been doing the best I can with what I have.

    When even a therapist can’t find the bright side of you and your life, what’s the fucking point? And he knows what he said hurt me, and doesn’t give a crap. What the hell kind of person can’t even get a therapist to care?

  63. fruitynug February 12, 2018 / 7:12 am

    That I’m absolutely terrified at the thought of dying. So much that I have panic attacks and then believe I am actually dying

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